Sunday, April 19, 2009

A REMINDER

I took this picture a little less than a year ago, after a few days of playing in the sun in our new front yard. I stumbled across it while filing all my pictures into iphoto on the new computer my sweet husband got me for his promotion. (Incase you wonder, I got him cuff links.) It breaks my heart going through these pictures of my babies from just one year ago when I think of all the amazing changes that have happened in our lives. The two babies in the picture are now a toddler and a little boy. It does not seen possible. I often hear parents long for more children claiming to miss the baby days, all things baby and such. I do NOT want more children, I just want them to be babies again! Who knew I would long for this such a short period of time after they come out of this stage? People tell you that you will want it back, and you don't get it until it's staring you in the face. The TRUTH is, I have days where I wonder what I was thinking, moments I feel I can't handle it anymore, thoughts of going back to work because this just isn't as fulfilling as I thought is would be........But more often that that, I look at these two amazing creatures and the man who helped me bring them into this world, and my breath leaves my body. The thought that I have each and every day with them leading up to the days they go to school and sleep more often than they see me, and recognizing all the work my husband does to make sure we are able to spend this time together, I truly do not know what I ever have to complain about? BUT, the TRUTH is, I will complain, wonder, fear, reconsider, frustrate, annoy, tolerate, just get by at times, no matter how thankful I claim to be in this moment. The TRUTH is, I love my life. And I know I will not always seem thankful for it. The TRUTH is, I will need to read this to myself in days to come as a reminder........




4 comments:

Tamie said...

Have I ever told you that you're a much better mother than I was..I'm very sorry for that..I watch in utter amazement as you mother your children...They are such amazing creatures, with just the right combination of you and Dado..You warm my heart and fulfull me..I am more proud of you than anything else I've accomplished in my life..Thank you..Love, mom

mslee1 said...

I love looking at and reading your blog! I feel connected with you. Have I ever told you that you should REALLY become a published writer? You have a way with words.

Brittne said...

A new computer! YAY you! Hubby and I need one badly lol

You're a GREAT mom to B and E. Everyone has their days but you always take them with a grain of sand. I love you guys!

Morgyn said...

It breaks my heart how fast they are growing up! I so so so wish I was closer.

Miss you guys wayyyy to much :/

Love you!