Tuesday, May 31, 2011


We had her party on Sunday, May 22
from 2-4
at the "purple park" in Joplin. 
It was a beautiful day.
And I had no idea what the evening would bring.
but I will write about the joy of that day.

She was so proud to hold her thumb down and extent those four fingers.
Our baby girl.

She is a fan or Strawberry Shortcake
 Her cupcake tower donned red, green and of course, pink sweet treats
with a few little figurines
and four pink candles
The green and red cupcakes weren't exactly the shade I asked for
but everyone had a great time making a mess with the icing
ben and cousin A

Gpa Mickey


It was windy and nearly impossible to light the candles
but Dad-O got it done.
We sang "happy birthday to you"
and then she blew
She opened her gifts
and with each tear of the paper she put on a show
proudly posing with each gift and thanking her guests profusely for her "favorite fring in da ho wide wurld"

She worked the crowd of friends that came to help her celebrate her day
being sure to make everyone feel appreciated for their attendance.

My sweet girl's FOURTH birthday party!

Tuesday, May 24, 2011


This is the sanctuary my family worshipped in on Sunday morning
Where my son graduated from pre-school last Thursday evening
Where my kids stood on stage for Christmas programs
This is the place that has helped our kids to attend school 
during this unsettling last six months our lives.
Our church home
My sweet babies' school
a place where we seek solace on Sunday morning
a place that welcomed us with open arms when we moved back
where we saw so many smiling faces pass us by in the halls

Now the halls are open air
church family is unaccounted for
My son wants to know where "C" is who he knows lives three houses from the school where, as far as we know, is leveled

Last night, as we watched Strawberry Shortcake and 
played with Em's new birthday toys in the basement
We had no idea that the world outside our window was forever changing
This will be the "where were you?" moment for the rest of my life as well and my children's lives.

But lives we have to continue, stories we have to tell.
Not all are so blessed.
We already know a few that left this life yesterday
and many who lost everything

And tonight I feel so helpless
so small
but I am reminded 
that even though I feel small
as long as I am doing something, even if it is small
all can get through this.

I am reminded of this by my "smalls"
Wanting to donate his favorite legos to a friend's son
asking "Is one set enough?" concerned for him to only have one toy.

And my girl asking if he has sisters that need toys, offering a basket of toys {including a few from her birthday party yesterday}
And my sweet boy with the biggest heart showing Dad-o that he knows how to help rebuild, illustrating by ripping up a package from a toy and taping it back together.

So we will follow our small's lead
and we will do small things for all we can.

We are praying for all tonight
God be with you and yours.

Friday, May 20, 2011


Looking back
I get a lump in my throat
that is impossible to swallow.
So I will write about tonight
and not dwell too long on the thoughts of baby Ben....
sweet baby Ben.
Tonight was a milestone evening
five years
and just like that
B graduated from Pre-school this evening
he goes to Kindergarten in the fall
Baby Ben goes to Kindergarten.....
sweet baby Ben
We all wore our Sunday best
B sported a tie for the first time
He walked into my bedroom after Dad-O helped him get dressed
and I could not believe how old he looked
My baby Boy
He danced his little heart out
sang at the top of his lungs
we were so proud
of our
 sweet baby boy
he walked on stage with his brown leather shoe untied
smirked at the crowd while Miss Collisha tied it back up
and proclaimed 
after receiving his medal and being asked
"what do you want to be when you grow up?"
Our baby boy gave his unique answer to the crowd
sharing his thoughts on his future
not mocking what others said
proving to us
yet again
he is one in a million
our baby boy
and our little miss joined him
cheering him on from the audience
responding so preciously and patiently to
"it's B's night tonight, yours will come"
And it was his night
our baby boy's night

Happy Graduation Baby Boy Benjamin

Wednesday, May 18, 2011

summer splash

In this house, we are looking forward to more days like this ONE day we had a few weeks ago. WHERE is the warm weather???
A lot is going on nowadays in this family of four, and tonight I do not much feel like writing about it, 
but just wanted to say, we are still around, 
and still hopeful
that life will feel "normal" again soon.
And part of our "normal" will be

Saturday, May 7, 2011


On their way to the Pinkalicious party! I have no idea what that means, but I'm sure I will know ALL about it when they return!
Thanks MiMi for the invite, the lovely outfit, and the precious time with my cousin!!!