alone

Today I got to do something I don't get to do very often

as the sun started falling from directly above our heads and heading west

and the wind went out of the sprite's sails

 the Mimi and Papa took a little siesta as well

Dad-O went for a swim in the pool 

and I went to the beach.....alone

just me and my thoughts

{and my red suit with white polka dots}

for a mom of two toddlers with little independence just yet

this does not happen....ever

so I sat on the edge of the water and let the waves lap up my feet

scooped up sand in my hands

and formed balls

beach balls

40 of them {B added one when he arrived}

so many things running through my head

and I was only able to catch a few

40 of them to be precise

so I scooped them up, and I pressed each thought into a nice little ball

smoothed them over and studied them,

worried about them, fought the shrinking feeling in the back of my throat over them, wiped a few tears over them as well

but I smiled at them all in the end.....

when my precious little cherubs

left footprints behind them in the sand

 as they headed toward my 40 thoughts 

picked them up in their pudgy little hands

one by one

and tossed them into the sea

putting all 40 of those thoughts that had me reeling 

in perspective