A letter to my baby boy on his fourth birthday

You came into my world

my world shifted

it will never be the same

has never had more meaning

You have my hair and my nose

my tendency to be....type A

you made me re-think unconditional love

you gave me a patience and a calm I never knew

but also an incomparable fear and worry

You changed my perspective

you made me a mother

Thank you...................

You were conceived after trying for what seemed like an eternity

I took a test in the early morning hours and hopped back into bed

we turned it over together to reveal...you were on your way

we felt your presence even before my tummy grew

we learned you were a boy, holding hands, looking at each other

we prepared for your arrival

then you came and we realized nothing could have prepared us

you brought us joy unspeakable

you made us parents

Thank you......................

he touched my tummy to feel you kick

he held my left leg, coached, danced, and rocked with me through the pain

he cut the cord and lay you on my empty tummy

I saw him over your shoulder when you took your first steps

you have his almond shaped eyes, his hands, and his swagger

you made him a Dad-O, you gave him the name

Thank you...................

You, glorious you

have the face of a cherub

the biggest of hearts

a love for life

a willingness to touch and hold softly

an "all boy" spirit

you have no idea how strong you are

but would not hurt a fly

you have perfected the art of winking {and it melts me every time}

butter soft skin, white blond hair that is darkening over time

sea blue eyes that sparkle when you laugh

a sense of humor like your Dad-O

a strong need to protect your sister

but you still let her get under your skin

a drive to follow the rules

do things "the right way"

you want to know how things work

find un-conventional ways to "play"

love it when I sing to you

and when Dad-O pretends to scare you

you are rough and tumble and willing to snuggle too

you are you

Thank you.......................